For me, living live to the full means embracing each moment as a opportunity to learn. It means to be present in every moment, no matter how uncomfortable our emotions can be in a situation. Living to the full, for me, means allowing myself to feel, whether it is feeling sensations in my body or feeling my emotions. Living to the full is also allowing myself to be. In this state of beingness I live. In being, I can become aware of my breath, I can become aware of what is me, what is around me. I can become aware of the nature of reality and the life that flows through it. Taking the time to be is, therefore, for me, an important aspect of living life to the full.
So then, when will I live life to the full? Now. Now is the perfect opportunity to do so. In fact, every moment is the perfect moment to embrace all that life is and all that I am. As I sit at a cafe, writing this reflective answer, I feel my heart beating, I feel my breath as it enters through my nose and fills my lungs. I feel energy around me, the heat of my body, my sexual energy.
I believe that we can truly enjoy each and every moment of this life once we learn to enjoy the simple things of life. Through the years of meditating and embracing a tantric way of life, a life that is rooted in body awareness and radical acceptance of all, I have learn to truly find pleasure at simple moments. This means being present in my body through my sense and very comfortable with my sexual energy. For me, arousal is a natural phenomenon that has little to do with sex and everything to do with being fully alive. Therefore, I allow myself to become aroused by life -- the texture of a table, the wind on my skin, the smell of a flower, words whispered into my ear -- many things can create a strong sense of arousal within me, increasing my sexual energy as I allow it to flow through my body, mostly through my heart center and through all of my chakras or energy centers. The state of aliveness, or body awareness and acceptance of my existence as a sensual and sexual being is at the root of my spiritual practice. It allows me to feel fully and to be fully present and alive in my experiences. I give thanks for the opportunity to live life to the full as I continuously bring myself back to the present moment, using my body as a sacred vessel to experience sacredness in every moment that we live, here, on Earth.
May all beings have the opportunity to ground within their body. May all beings find trust and courage to do so. May we all find the strength to be with every emotion, no matter its intensity. I have sat with tremendous amount of pain as well. My life is not a perfect blissful tantric orgasm. However, in being present with the pain that I experience in my body, I can respond to it with greater awareness. I have been lucky enough to have the time to be able to address my pain and to be with it. At times in my life, I was stagnant, I couldn’t do anything nor make any decisions for my future. Yet, I allowed the process to unfold, in crying a lot, I felt that I was able to process some of the emotional blockages that were surfacing for me to witness. When the time was right, when my body told me that it was time to move and laugh again, I was able to move on with my life from a place of deeper wisdom. In a way, I feel that I was able to dig my roots more deeply into the earth through my emotional descent -- in knowing about my shadow and my deepest pain, anchored in my childhood traumas. Now the time is to let my branches grow, my flowers boom. Now is the time to allow the wind to caress my tenderest branches. Yet, I also give thanks for the next cycles of emotional turmoil that will initiate me into feeling the entire spectrum of emotions and allow me to deepen my connection with myself and with the present moment.
Here is a place for me to share some of my downloads, realisations, insights, lessons and experiences - all filled with deep spiritual teachings. I hope some of this will resonate with you.